Flies of reality buzzing and I’m less affected now. More easy going, maybe, more surrendered. Less… invested? Invested in pleasure, in the success of… anything? More… now?
What I really want to say is that I’m inspired by the path of poetry. I am excited to leave here and join Naropa. To devote myself more fully to naked, authentic, expression. Marketing is not that. Marketing is important. Marketing is my job. I can do that. It’s good to pay the bills — my bills, SMC’s bills. But good not to neglect the feminine. Good not to buy into the idea that there’s just not time for song, poesy, leisure — that we just have to grind until there’s enough money in the bank account to rest. We could all die, with regret, thinking that way.
And, also good to not shrug off my responsibilities, to not forget my good fortune — of working with such caring, inspired people.
Anne Waldman spoke about a “Vow to Poetry” that she took. She promised not to sell out. She promised to uphold and honor the “rebellious and high art” of poetry.
I can do that and also write marketing copy, right?
Writing this blog is part of my job. My J – O – B. But it’s also my passion. It’s the sliver of activity that has the most overlap — livelihood and passion.
I’m pretty much in alignment with the rest of the work too. We’re promoting meditation, making it easy for people to connect with the teachings on meditation, compassion, societal transformation. That’s good! Yes. And I’m learning how to… be… accessible. To write in a way that’s accessible. To be involved in a strategic operation with commercial success as one of its goals.
Is that selling out? No. Man! There are people who have to work for people who are doing very dubious things in this world. I am not one of them. Our work is good-hearted, honest, compassionate. Still… it’s a stretch for me to write: catchy taglines, headers… to write in a voice that is not my own. It’s kind of like fiction, even though it’s… also honest.
— October 14, 2015
Floral Notes and Bardo: The Creative Chronicles of a Shambhala Mountain Resident is a regular feature on the SMC blog in which a member of our staff/community shares his experience of living as part of Shambhala Mountain Center.
About the Author
Travis Newbill is a writer, musician, and aspirant on the path of meditation. He currently resides at Shambhala Mountain Center, where he serves in the roles of Marketing Associate and Shambhala Guide — a preliminary teaching position. Check out: travisnewbill.com Follow Travis on twitter: @travisnewbill