When I heard clearly in my heart this morning that I ought to stay on the cusion for another 15 minutes instead of trying to squeeze out a blog before heading to work, I ignored it. Now, I feel like it’s an injustice to try to squeeze out writing. No way to do justice to what has happened over the past week:
Incredible 8 hour drive through the golden foliage, winding mountain roads, with Heather. A weekend at Wink and Max’s winery, farm, with the sheep. Cow Bingo and the country Harvest festival. The cool town of Paonia. Harvest moon eclipse, soaring into bliss with wine and treats. The journey back — the winding roads and into the deadly cliff-side curves of Estes after dark. Survived and found a cheap motel, finished the bottle of wine, slept, and made it back to SMC in time for work.
Back in the cabin, the mice running amok, their turds piling up. My own shit… still no toilet, and further complications. Depressing.
Meanwhile, the marketing team in full gear to meet today’s deadline — so, less sitting, even less writing, no commuity meeting or helping with the dining tent take-down. Going to New York on Saturday morning to film the teachers.
Yesterday was Oliver’s (the SMC baby) first birthday. We had a lovely community celebration at the Stupa, followed by cake in the dining room. Later in the evening, Avajra John led a crazy disco dance party in the greenhouse — with lights and everything. Crazy.
So sad: to not have time to write, to be parting from Heather, to be bound to die a thousand deaths in this lifetime.
I don’t have time to write about the sadness. I’m just squeezing this one out. Can’t squeeze out tenderness. Time to go to work. So much left unsung.
— October 1, 2015
Floral Notes and Bardo: The Creative Chronicles of a Shambhala Mountain Resident is a regular feature on the SMC blog in which a member of our staff/community shares his experience of living as part of Shambhala Mountain Center.
Travis Newbill is a writer, musician, and aspirant on the path of meditation. He currently resides at Shambhala Mountain Center, where he serves in the roles of Marketing Associate and Shambhala Guide — a preliminary teaching position. Follow Travis on twitter: @travisnewbill