By Travis Newbill
Floral Notes and Bardo: The Creative Chronicles of a Shambhala Mountain Resident is a daily feature on the SMC blog in which a member of our staff/community shares his experience of existing as part of Shambhala Mountain Center.
In the wee hours, I stepped outside the yurt to wee. It was frosty and blue. The moon nearly full in the western sky, so the east-facing ridge was kissed, aglow. Everything so still, frosty. The Stupa illuminated, and the bare aspens, unconcerned.
My mantra: no rush.
I’m realizing — again and again — how bent I am on doing so many, many, things. Today at breakfast, I skipped the grapefruit, rather than inhaling it so that I could make it to meditation on time.
Less and more fully.
I spent some time last night in the shrine room, by myself, studying the dharma. So cold outside, and cozy in Pushpa with my tea and the heater, and lots of space to read, reflect. I felt connected to my journey. When the session felt complete, I walked up to the yurt, lit candles and played music without even glancing at the clock.
Nearly full moon rising, and playing whatever music I felt like playing. My voice out of shape, but not. What is “out”?
Music as a yoga. Through playing: knowing genuineness, tenderness, timidity, fear, playfulness and all the rest. It’s so poignant for me.
Two and a half years ago, when I first envisioned living here, making music was part of the vision. Living in this amazing environment and letting it sing through me. A year ago, after moving here, that was still the vision. Somewhere along the line, it fell off. I’ve touched the desperation of being estranged from it, and now I’m falling in love. Music, music, music…
Last night, playing, such a deep joy out of the beautiful mystery of the music arising. The music saying more about life than words on the page. Period. Ellipses.
— November 4, 2014
Travis Newbill is a curious dude on the path of artistry, meditation, and social engagement who is very glad to be residing at Shambhala Mountain Center. His roles within the organization include Marketing Associate and Shambhala Guide — a preliminary teaching position. Follow Travis on twitter: @travisnewbill